Forgiveness

Maybe the things people be saying about me are true

And maybe I just don't care 

Maybe my perception of me, is the only one that really is there

When I sit in this reality

And I claim it to not exist 

Others look at me in disbelief 

And be saying I'm making up shit 

When I believe in loyalty 

And talking things out 

People look at me like I'm delusional 

And then they start to shout 

My truth doesn't seem to match with anyone else's shit

No wonder why I fill so alone in a world that doesn't exist 

Exist in my heart 

Nor exist in my soul 

People never stay for the long run 

They just seem to take and go 

So tell me what's the point 

When everything seems to feel like a drought 

What the fuck am I searching for, that so long I've been without 

I can't make this shit up 

I don't understand their perception 

I don't know if it's their truth that annoys me most

Or their own deception 

I don't like this feeling 

I don't like not being in control 

I don't like fucking with these voices

All this shit been old 

What is your point when you yell?

Cause all I hear is fear

I'm not listening to that bullshit

Never wanted verbal abuse near 

Talk to me with reason 

Make me understand

Speak to me with volume 

Respect is what I demand 

I never understood people

That treat others so bad

I never wanted any of this 

I never even asked 

But do I speak with such anger 

No I continue to live 

Tell me how can you move forward

If you never forgive.