Clarity

I see everything better today. I will act accordingly and move smarter. Balance is the key. I have to stay loyal to my speed, and trust myself more. I have to be strong in my mental, and cautious with my emotions. I will allow myself to feel, but will keep my actions limited. Learn your powers. Manifest your dreams, because they are your reality. 

what's normal anyway

JAYRENEE'S FAVORITES

1. MY  FAVORITE SONG
2. CALLA LILY IS MY FAVORITE FLOWER
3. LOVE JONES IS MY FAVORITE MOVIE
4. 1 CORINTHIANS 13:4-7 IS MY FAVORITE BIBLE VERSE
5. BLACK IS MY FAVORITE COLOR
6. I LIKE MY HAIR SHORT BEST
7. MY FAVORITE MEAL IS A LAMB GYRO, EVEN THOUGH I AM TRANSITIONING TO NOT EAT MEAT ANYMORE (LOL)
8. MY FAVORITE THING TO DO, IS TO GO DANCING
9. MY FAVORITE SPACE IN A HOME IS THE BATHROOM
10. MY FAVORITE PERSON IN THE WORLD IS MY DAUGHTER
11. MY FAVORITE RAP ARTIST IS KENDRICK LAMAR
12. MY FAVORITE SINGER IS LAURYN HILL
13. MY FAVORITE SPORT IS BASKETBALL
14. MY FAVORITE BASKETBALL PLAYER IS KEVIN GARNETT
15. MY FAVORITE OUTFIT TO WEAR WOULD BE NUDITY, LOL I HATE CLOTHES
16. MY FAVORITE PLACE IN THE WORLD WOULD HAVE TO BE EUROPE
17. MY FAVORITE THING TO COOK IS AN OMELET 
18. MY FAVORITE MEMORY IS WHEN MY GRANDMOTHER KILLED A ROACH FOR ME, I HAVE A REAL LIFE PHOBIA OF ROACHES, AND SHE FELT LIKE MY HERO, AND WE LAUGHED FOR A GOOD MINUTE AFTERWARDS.
19. MY FAVORITE RELEASE WOULD BE, WRITING.
20. MY FAVORITE DRINK IS COFFEE 

Faith

Rare belle rebelled

Emotionally trapped 

jail hell

Controlled Whispers dance in sync 

With an irregular distinct heart beat 

Neglected soul,

never told

Of the past, reaped and sewed 

She Looks to the light to find help

From years of tears, silently whelped. 

A breakthrough was given 

From one decision 

To finally mention, the hidden tension

That rare belle should, and could see the light

That revealed her soul was truly bright 

For in her, he saw he warmed her soul

And understood the tainted destructive mold

From years, and years of neglect 

That did particularly, in her, take affect 

A precious jewel, turned into a wreck 

Survived, so strong, she did from faith 

Her love from God was not in vain

For his journey for her was special indeed

And if she kept faith, she would succeed

That in her gift, he gave to her

Had open the eyes that once were blur 

That with time, patience, and trust in his hand

That he would provide a special man

To love her forever long, as the water meets the sand

To be in the most high demand 

Amongst the human race, so foul

That she would be stunned in denial

That such a remarkable creature could exist 

And love her and she couldn't resist

That finally she could clearly see

Her pain, not in vain, was for her  love succeed. 

Simple mathematics

I feel the most normal alone

In the dark

I feel the most at home 

when I spark

I don't know what's out there, but I'm hoping to find it

Whatever it is, I feel it,

there's no denying 

I don't even know what I'm searching for 

Yet I do know

Now I'm starting to sound like a lunatic 

That's usually how it goes

I'd like to call myself a creative 

Or maybe even a dreamer 

But our dreams are our true reality 

And this reality is truly illegal 

Illegal in every aspect

Yet there's no unity, so they do as they please

I'm just trying to connect and link up 

And find the ones with similar beliefs 

Every time I think of what my passion is,

My head spins, simply because...

No matter what I seem to name,

The common denominator, ends up being love.

Forgiveness

Maybe the things people be saying about me are true

And maybe I just don't care 

Maybe my perception of me, is the only one that really is there

When I sit in this reality

And I claim it to not exist 

Others look at me in disbelief 

And be saying I'm making up shit 

When I believe in loyalty 

And talking things out 

People look at me like I'm delusional 

And then they start to shout 

My truth doesn't seem to match with anyone else's shit

No wonder why I fill so alone in a world that doesn't exist 

Exist in my heart 

Nor exist in my soul 

People never stay for the long run 

They just seem to take and go 

So tell me what's the point 

When everything seems to feel like a drought 

What the fuck am I searching for, that so long I've been without 

I can't make this shit up 

I don't understand their perception 

I don't know if it's their truth that annoys me most

Or their own deception 

I don't like this feeling 

I don't like not being in control 

I don't like fucking with these voices

All this shit been old 

What is your point when you yell?

Cause all I hear is fear

I'm not listening to that bullshit

Never wanted verbal abuse near 

Talk to me with reason 

Make me understand

Speak to me with volume 

Respect is what I demand 

I never understood people

That treat others so bad

I never wanted any of this 

I never even asked 

But do I speak with such anger 

No I continue to live 

Tell me how can you move forward

If you never forgive. 

I would rather die for the truth, than to live a lie..

People love to call you crazy.
Crazy, is something they call you, when they do not understand you.
I have some random thoughts I just want to write down, just for a free vent.

1. I do not vote.
2. I am trying to become vegetarian, because I want to eat what is from the earth, and not have to eat anything that was killed. The Earth belongs to everyone.
3. I see auras, (colors of energy) but when I do not meditate, I can not see them.
4. I meditate, and the secrets to the universe is revealed when you meditate.
5. I pray
6. The government has an agenda to depopulate humanity with media, diseases, militant force, and segregation. We do not have batteries in our cell phones, that come out anymore, because we are getting tracked by the NSA, so even when we power our phone to off mode, they can still track us. Get you an old school.
7. I am not perfect.
8. Everyone should read the bible.
9. B.O.B is my favorite artist now, because he speaks of all the truths that are happening in the world today, everyone should listen to his mixtapes: Fire, Ice, Psycadelik Thoughtz, and New Black.
10. The NSA has erased my shit before on my blogs.
11. learn about chakras.
12. Research: human cloning, New World Order, FEMA camps, all the executive orders that Obama signed, Mayans, Annukia, Depopulation, Georgia Guide stones, where HIV came from, Cure to AIDS, 911, the pineal gland fluoride, energy and healing, satanism and rituals, Bohemian Grove, and children sacrifices, just for starters...
13. Time is an illusion.
14. We live in the third dimension.
15. Research Astral Projection, and the pineal gland.
16. I try and raise my vibrations daily and spread love.
17. I am a loner.
18. My child saved my life.
19. I love hard.
20. I do Yoga.
21. I am a hypocrite some times.
22. Kendrick Lamar inspired me to start writing again.
23. I love to help and talk the homeless.
24. You need to invest in guns, learn to shoot, and grow a garden.
25. I do not believe in putting my money into banks.
26. I am practicing celibacy until marriage.
27. I cut off liars, even if it is the smallest lie.
28. I pray for unity everyday.
29. I am about to loc my hair.
30. Starting today, I plan to drink nothing but water, black coffee, and herbal teas.