27, and still... I do NOT have all of my shit together...

I thought, that at this age, I would have a lot of "things" accomplished...

this is me celebrating my 27th birthday...
I can be honest, and say that I have not made the typical, "American dream" choices.
I dropped out of college, married, and are now going through a divorce, with a daughter. To me this sounds like the average American fuck up, lol. Which appears very common, and honestly, I NEVER thought I would divorce,  because of my belief in unity and love... but that is another story, for another write...
I thought I was doing the right things in some aspects of my life, but I came to a realization, that I was doing what everyone else wanted me to do.
I was miserable, and felt like I had no real control of my life.
I have always felt like, I was not of this world, or something... I do not know how to explain this feeling...
kind of like how people are not in the same tax brackets, but at the same time I feel that we all are equal beings.
I feel self conflicted all the time, especially because my love for humanity. My mind, causes me to be hypocritical, because I can be so passionate about some things, but understand things for what they really are. Understanding, some times, can be very overwhelming, especially if the outcome is not of your wants. Blessings and gifts from the creator, can feel like curses at times for me, because it test your patience, and that is something sometimes I lack in certain aspects of my life.
I think we have been programmed to think, what the "right" thing to do is, and do not exercise critical thinking, and embrace self love.
I rarely hear encouragement, to be original, and stay true to yourself.
Now I am not here to point fingers, or throw a pity party for myself, because at the end of the day we have free will, and we have to take responsibility for our actions.
I just want to encourage someone with this post to be yourself.
Make your own happiness, and do not focus on time, because it is only an illusion.
You are great infinitely.
It is never too late to get it "right" in your life. You are your biggest devil and angel, so try and focus on the law of polarity, and turn your darkness into light.
The moment I started living for me, and truly believing in my wants and needs, I began to heal and live again. It all is a process, and growth is beautiful, just trust in the most high, and believe in yourself. This shit here is not easy, but do not beat yourself up, because everything worth fighting for is worth having.